It’s time..
I’m a sinner. I’ve spent my life making selfish and destructive decisions. I’ve allowed my words to speak death instead of life. But the thing I’m most ashamed of is not something I’ve done. It’s what I haven’t done. It’s my apathy. It’s putting my own selfish comfort above the needs others. It’s a watching a world suffer and deciding the task is too large. It’s waiting for people with needs to come to me, instead of going out and finding how I can help.
God’s love changed me. Jesus’ blood saved me. His spirit empowers me. His provisions are my security, and his grace is something I can no longer be quiet about. My faith is not just one I’m willing to die for. No.. my faith is one I’m willing to live for.. every day..in every situation.
On May 24, I realized I can no longer accept apathy as a part of my life. For the next 12 days, God began to break my heart for the things he sees. The poor and helpless. The rich and alone. The exhausted. The worried. The desperate. The medicore. The lack of unity among his people. As God broke my heart, he also reminded me of a vision he had given me several years ago.
I was living in Nicaragua. Week after week, I would watch teams of people of every age and every situation travel to that beautiful country. While the people were as different as the places they came from, one thing remained the same. They returned home changed. They arrived with the idea they could impact a community. They served and shared the love of our Savior with some of poorest people in the world. And it was life changing. With a changed heart, they were able to return to their own homes and make an impact in their own community. After seeing the three-fold benefit, God gave me a vision for missions that had been aside until last month when God gave my spirit that nudge to say, “it’s time.”
I’m writing this to tell you that I’m in the process of starting a non-profit company. Our vision is to provide a full missions experience and bring churches together to work for a common goal. As a company, we want to support missionaries and ministries around the world. We will start by planning two trips for 2010. One will be international and the other within the United States. The full missions experience goes beyond planning what will happen for that one week. We will have offer pre-trip informational meetings and fundraising support. We will also offer connections and ways to get involved in outreaches when they return home.
This decision for my life has not been made haphazardly. I can look back on the last 9 years and see how God has been preparing me for this . Since May 24, there has not been a day that I haven’t spent considerable time in thought and prayer over this. There hasn’t been a day that I haven’t doubted it. There hasn’t been a day that I haven’t been excited about it.
So, I’m going to do it. I’m not naive enough to think that everyone will understand or support this. I know I will meet resistance because I know that there is an unseen battle, but I also know who wins that battle. The truth is… I have no idea what I’m doing 
. But I will dent the universe. I know that God’s going to bring people to surround and support this company in areas where I don’t know what to do. I’m simply going to search for God’s heart everday and for every decision that needs to be made. I’m asking that you would do the same. Join with me in prayer as I begin the journey with this company.
