hEAR mE rOCK

It officially happened. As of Thursday, I have officially been reduced to a part-time employee at Grace Family Church.

I’ve been unhappy there for a few months, but I continued to believe I was there for a purpose. And when the time would come that I was no longer being used, or learning what I needed to learn God would move me somewhere else. The truth is, for several weeks I have entertained the idea that maybe it was time to move. However, the comfort of having a steady income and benefits made it hard to walk away.

But now I’m being forced.

And surprisingly, I’m okay.

The thing is.. I don’t have to understand why I’m about to jobless. I don’t have to understand the timing. I don’t have to understand the circumstances. I don’t have to know what’s next or when it’s coming.

All I have to do is wait, and be ready to move when he says move. Pray for direction and when God shows me that direction… take that step.

The fact is.. my feelings are hurt. I’m scared, and I’m fighting bitterness towards the people involved. But all of those things are fleeting emotions, and God did not call us to live by our emotions.

I can’t be upset about this because my destiny is not determined by a group of men or an organization. My desitny is determined by God.

God, I am broken at your feet. I know that I have nothing to be scared about. I know that you provide strength through my weakness. I know that I may feel neglected right now, but I also know how concerned you are with me. I know that despite the fact I don’t understand this path right now, I can take comfort in the fact that you have not forgotten about me. You determine my destiny. You give me purpose. You provide. And all you ask is that I be ready. So God, I’m ready.